Dankbarkeitstagebuch

„Die Sonne geht auch wieder auf.“

– ein ganz besonderer Mensch

Heute bin ich dankbar für/today I am thankful for…

Woche 14 (10.11.-16.11.23):

10.11.2023

…the kind and positive reactions on my diary.

..AND an fun night with Julian, not finding any place to ice skate but ending up watching a random ice figure skating training session and talking about dumb „drunk stories“.

…AND Julian’s phone translating some kind of training session like this:

(couldn’t stop laughing for minutes)

Woche 13 (03.11.-09.11.23):

09.11.2023

…technical issues in our Irish Studies Class which were so absurd after a while that – despite the current difficult situation – we had to burst into laughter.

08.11.2023

…the strength to write a thank – you – message to a person who had a strong positive influence in my life.

07.11.2023

…Luisa’s reaction towards a piece of my writing which I shared with her.

AND a really kind reference written by a Finnish teacher who’s class I substituted a few weeks ago.

06.11.2023

…everything I learned about spacial theory from my lecturer KTL who woke my passion for this topic and, therewith, unknowingly helped me put a whole lecture together in a state in which I was barely able to concentrate on anything.

05.11.2023

…knowing Stefan and I have each other no matter what happens and where we are. This friendship is worth more than words can express.

AND the German TV show „Wer stielt mir die Show“ which made me laugh so hard after feeling so much pain during the past days.

04.11.2023

… Tomas setting up a digital campfire and making me laugh when I wasn’t even able to see any light at the end of the tunnel.

03.11.2023

…people I am not even really close with caring about me.

Woche 12 (27.10.-02.11.23):

02.11.2023

…the long and honest hug from a person I only know a little.

AND the sentence „I wasn’t lying either, you know?“

01.11.2023

…discovering „Walking on Cars“ as one of my new favourite bands.

Walking on Cars (unfortunately not active anymore)

31.10.2023

…dancing on frozen „Pyykösjärvi“ (the lake next to Yliopistukatu 16 – the appartment bulding we currently live in).

30.10.2023

…hugging Lorin and Tomas after not seeing them for 11 days.

29.10.2023

…returning home after our trip to Lapland and Norway. It was amazing but exhausting too. So being back home felt grounding.

Straight went down to our lake again which felt so much like home that it’s hard to express.

28.10.2023

…the sight of a frozen waterfall, the most spectacular and surprising sight of Northern lights so far and the Frozen-Soundtrack during our drive.

27.10.2023

…a night on my own (since the others went out for dinner), reading and finishing a book („The heart is a lonely hunter“).

Woche 12 (20.10.-26.10.23):

26.10.2023

…Jack London’s enriching quotes and Norway’s stunning landscape.

25.10.2023

…my warm cosy jacket which kept me safe from the strong Norwegian winds.

photos by Hélo

24.10.2023

…the experience of staying in an abandoned mansion joking about it being haunted and surviving our night there.

AND another beautiful sunset hike right before.

23.10.2023

…realising that there are many things in life I have grown tired of but the sunset being a beautiful exception since each was unique and stunning on it’s own way.

AND a valuable conversation with Luisa, listening to her describing why the Pilea plant was a suitable metaphor for the teacher’s profession.

photo by Hélo

AND the Sauna in our Airbnb after the walk in the cold.

22.10.2023

…running around Inari during a Sherlock Holmes mistery game – feeling like part of a proper detective movie and later hugging trees with Hélo as part of the story game.

21.10.2023

…the strange and unexpected moment when we ended up talking about the power of languages and their value for intercultural communication with the „fake Santa Claus“ at Rovaniemi.

20.10.2023

…that I asked Julian if I could borrow his racing bike for today’s bike ride and hiking trip. Was way less effort riding it than the PSOAS bikes.

AND the early morning peace we drove through in the morning.

AND that the boys just started making a fire when we arrived at our destination.

AND a passionate good-bye.

Woche 11 (13.10.-19.10.23):

19.10.2023

…the motivation to run to the beach and back again.

AND (added retrospectively since I could’nt know back then) having the chance to wake up next to the person I loved for one last time.

18.10.2023

…the campfire night with Lorin, Tomas and Mic. Reading horror stories (The Shadow – by Edith Nesbit), mulled wine and good music.

photos by Lorin Peltz

person 1: „You got a really good taste of music.“

person 2: „And of woman.“ (smiling)

17.10.2023

…having a very long Discord-Call with Isabell after not seeing and hearing her for a longer time. Felt so happy just talking about random things with a person so dear to me.

AND bonus points in my Finnish exam.

16.10.2023

…a productive study session working on my book together with Mic.

15.10.2023

…just carving a pumpkin by myself.

AND the „Care for some cookies ?“ message

14.10.2023

…strolling through an arts exibithion on „fire“ together with Mic, iscussing thoughts, feelings and associations concerning the pictures.

13.10.2023

…a successful presentation on „Going Abroad“ in a Finish class including one student writing „Don’t let fear stop you“ in their final feedback. Mission accomplished.

AND Mic’s answer when telling him about it:

Woche 10 (06.10.-12.10.23):

12.10.2023

…bursting into laughter in our Irish Studies Class since our teacher confidently got Mic’s name wrong prepeatedly and kept calling him Patrick.

AND a tired head on my chest, listening to his scatterbrained tired mumbeling full of tiny stories and appreciation. A small moment full of peace and happiness which – for a moment – I thought I desvered.

11.10.2023

…a Finnish teacher trusting me enough to offer me the substitution of one of her English classes the next day after only meeting me once. Even though it was stressful, the opportunity was worth it!

10.10.2023

…fooling around in our Finnish class. The teacher addressing Mic with „The guy next to Laura“ and he labeling himself as such a minute later.

09.10.2023

…monday lunch with the guys.

08.10.2023

…canoeing with Julian, Hélo, Niklas and Julian’s friend from Germany while having many funny conversations.

photo by Hélo

07.10.2023

…doing stupid quizzed together with Mic (e.g. „What kind of water are you?“ – seems like I am a waterfall haha) and inventing ridiculous stories and explanations for random English sayings. Just a night full of ease and laughter.

https://www.quizony.com/what-kind-of-water-are-you/index.html

…the first snow of the year.

AND my first Sauna experience in the PSOAS sauna next door.

06.10.2023

…a funny group work. None of us could draw but all of us had fun creating something together anyway.

Woche 9 (29.09.-05.10.23):

05.10.2023

…bouldering with Lorin and finishing a route I struggled a lot with last week.

photo by Lorin Peltz

04.10.2023

…Lorin checking on me after I was bothered by a drunk stranger.

AND the bus driver taking us and our bikes back home since poured rain when we left the bar.

03.10.2023

…me sending Mic material concerning mythology and Shakespeare and receiving the following answers:

02.10.2023

…being late in the morning and receiving the massage the person you wanted to meet with was late too.

01.10.2023

…going to bed at 4.30 am after a long night of talking, good food and good wine.

AND a cozy day in bed watching the most French movie ever and not thinking about anything but know.

30.09.2023

…one of the best theatre evenings of the year seeing „Pienen hauen pyydystys“ (= Fishing for the little pike) in the city theatre in Oulu.

AND one of the most romantic, beautiful and happy days in my entire life.

AND the fullfilled and positively surprised face of another person.

29.09.2023

…the random circumstance that Lorin, Tomas, Mic and I – without planning, met one after another in the middle of the night; enjoying this fortuitous moment in life.

photo by Tomas Weiss
Woche 8 (22.09.-28.09.23):

28.09.2023

…the joy of planning and preparing the dinner and evening on saturday. Just hyped and excited.

27.09.2023

…Grainne officially handing over the responsibility for „The English Speaking Meetup“ to Stefan, Johanna, Desiree, Shaydon, Lea and me.

26.09.2023

…the tradition/routine of walking to the lake „Pyykösjärvi“ once a day and seeing it change in a new beautiful way every day.

25.09.2023

…providing Mic the opportunity to visit a Finnish school together with me.

AND being naturally inspired for the preparation of a lecture on „Going Abroad“ at this Finnish school.

24.09.2023

…the beautiful sight of the Suomenlinna Sea Fortress in Helsinki, enjoying strolling around on rocks and breathing in the fresh sea air.

AND a way to French breakfast.

photos by Tomas Weiss

23.09.2023

…hot chocolate and cinnemon rolls for breakfast in romantic rainy setting with the boys.

AND strolling through Helsinki with the boys.

…AND giving a ridicoulus theatre performance to the boys in a museum.

photos by Tomas Weiss

AND seeing an incredible theatre performance („Hiirenloukku“, engl. „The Mousetrap“) in the city theatre Helsinki.

AND waking up next to a person I deeply care about.

22.09.2023

…preparing sandwiches with the boys for our Helsinki trip, a smooth train ride, thought-provoking „Would you rather“ – questions and feeling like detectives on our search for the AirBnB keys.

Woche 7 (15.09.-21.09.23):

21.09.2023

…not knowing that it was only days/weeks back then.

20.09.2023

…randomly going to a Cello concert with Mic conducted by children presenting their current progress, feeling like a proud mum just watching those kids play and rediscovering my deep love for Cello music.

AND saying something with a positve impact on somebody else.

19.09.2023

…receiving cookies made by an experimental doubtful non-existent recipe.

AND the sentence: „It was crazy realising that kissing you wansn’t just something I wanted to to do but something I could do.“

18.09.2023

…reading my written version of Mic’s thoughts on „Cloud Factories“ to him and hearing him liking the way I retold his story.

AND seeing Northern lights for the first time (together with Lorin, Tomas and Mic).

photos by Tomas Weiss

17.09.2023

…meeting Mic’s cousin who is an inspiring person all along, filled with a deep desire to see the world.

AND not dying while driving a scooter back home from the city centre.

16.09.2023

…going second hand shopping with Mic, buying amazing blazers and having an ongoing amazing conversation on personal matters the whole day.

15.09.2023

…feeling comfortable in my own skin.

AND writing a poem on the spot in my „The Modern Language Teacher“ seminar.

Woche 6 (08.09.-14.09.23):

14.09.2023

……reading the article „Stories that move: Fiction, imagination, tourism“ by Stijn Reijnders – one of the most valuable articles I read in my university career so far.

(Reijnders, S. (2016) Stories that move: Fiction, imagination, tourism. European Journal of Cultural Studies, 19(6), 672–689.)

AND being on the same page with a person – rather watching a movie than going somewhere.

13.09.2023

…a new episode „Gemischtes Hack“ after the terribly long summer break.

Dachassel – Gemischtes Hack

AND being entrusted with a personal piece of writing.

12.09.2023

…the following message:

AND two people talking to each other in riddles for hours and, finally, ending up showing honest emotions towards the other person.

AND feeling bliss after month of feeling nothing but emptiness.

11.09.2023

…receiving an answer to my handwritten invitation to the theatre.

10.09.2023

…randomly lighting a fire next to „Pyykösjärvi“ and fooling around a dinosaur theme – playground.

09.09.2023

…swimming in the ocean at Nallikarin beach, watching the sunset, being grateful for chapter 1 of this exchange semester/the Irish Pub Club and the realisation of being the person I alsways wanted to to be for once in my life and feeling a happiness I didn’t know was possible feeling anymore.

photos by Tomas Weiss and Lorin Peltz

08.09.2023

…settling for a date to go to the Finnish theatre and being ask to write a hand-written invitation for that.

AND having a great laugh with Julian on picking up his girlfriend comepletely drunk after „Hurmos“.

AND watching the sunset and throwing water at each other at the docks during „Hurmos“.

photos 2-4 by Lorin Peltz
Woche 5 (01.09.-07.09.23):

07.09.2023

…fooling around at a playground in the dark, rolling down a hill without caring about my white pants and heart-shaped pizza in the middle of the night.

in other words: a casual night

06.09.2023

…baking an apple cake for Niklas birthday and having the cake + apple cider later together.

photo by Niklas

AND being the crazy person who climed on top of the police man’s statue.

AND the feeling of someone looking after you even if your’re not around.

05.09.2023

…walking up by having a laughing fit, discovering the beauty of the botanical gardens around the corner and the capability of the people around me to put EVERYTHING around us into poetry.

04.09.2023

…a supposed-to-be-movie-night turning into the most experimential apple cake ever.

AND

the ridicoulus idea of carring somebody else’s mirror to my appartment and in the end even signing it.

03.09.2023

…staring at the ocean at Narikari beach and sharing stories (especially the story of the cloud factories), childhood dreams and thoughts on life with Mic.

OR 19km of walking; 11h of talking.

02.09.2023

…being called „a cool kid“ by someone who’s opinion I care about.

01.09.2023

…being entrusted with a beautiful personal story about people sharing pieces of their hearts.

Woche 4 (25.08.-31.08.23):

31.08.2023

…den Beginn des „Irish Pub Clubs“, den langen Heimweg durch die Nacht und die Gespräche, das Lachen und Rumblödeln mit Lorin, Tomas und Mic im Regen.

photos 2 and 3 by Tomas Weiss

30.08.2023

…den Spaziergang um den See „Pyykösjärvi“ und die ersten Kontake, die ich geknüpft habe.

29.08.2023

…die Durchsage, dass unsere S-Bahn den Bahnhof Halle doch planmäßig verlassen kann und ich somit problemlos meine Reise nach Finnland antreten konnte.

28.08.2023

…die Mutmach-Kinder-buoeno, der noch von Johannas Abreise übrig ist.

27.08.2023

…die Wanderung und das Picknick mit meiner Mum und guten alten Freunden

26.08.2023

…die folgenden Worte einer Freundin:

25.08.2023

…die Freundschaft mit Stefan

Woche 3 (18.08.-24.08.23):

24.08.2023

…den gemeinsamen Abend mit meinen Friends im Connoisseur.

23.08.2023

…das neue Glas auf meinem Handy und die neue Handyhülle. Ich hab fast das Gefühl ein neues Handy zu haben.

22.08.2023

…die Freude, die mir dieser Blog macht und alte Fotos, die mich an Erlebnisse erinnern, die ich aufgrund meines siebförmigen Gehirns ansonsten vielleicht für immer vergessen hätte.

21.08.2023

…die offenen, ehrlichen und emotionale Gespräche mit Stefan.

20.08.2023

…folgende Nachricht:

19.08.2023

…den Vormittag mit Isa und das Ziegenfüttern im Tierpark in Waldhaus

18.08.2023

…den Abend beim Pappe-Open-Air mit Isa (besonders das Ambiente der „Alten Papierfabrik“ und die Band (Treptow) die ich neu kennengelernt habe)

Mein absoluter Favorit des gestrigen Abends!

Woche 2 (11.08.-17.08.23):

17.08.2023

…den Spaziergang über Feld in den Sonnenuntergang. Ohne Handy, ohne Kopfhörer, ohne alles. Nur ich, die letzten Sonnenstrahlen und das Gras unter meinen Füßen. Solche Momente der Stille fallen mir zwar schwer, sind aber unglaublich heilsam.

16.08.2023

…das Buch, was ich heute zuende gelesen habe und das Knetkuchenbacken mit meinem kleinen Bruder

15.08.2023

…den ersten gemeinsamen Nachmittag allein mit meiner Stiefmama, den Einblick in ihren Arbeitsalltag und das ehrliche Gespräch auf der Heimfahrt im Auto.

14.08.2023

…den Beste-Arschbombe-ins-Plastik-Planschbecken-Wettbewerb mit meinem kleinen Bruder im Garten

13.08.2023

…den Umstand nach viel Schweiß und Geduld eindlich die eine Hälfte unseres Gartenzauns fertig gestrichen zu haben.

12.08.2023

…einen doppelten komplett durchgängigen Regenbogen und das Gefühl man hätte unser Zuhause wäre nicht weniger als eine Märchenbuchseite voller kindlichem Zauber und unbegreiflicher Magie.

11.08.2023

…ein unerwartetes Abschiedsgeschenk inklusive herzerwärmendem Brief ❤

Woche 1 (04.08-10.08.23):

10.08.2023

…die erfolgreiche Präsentation zu unserer Umfrage „Bierball, Flunkyball oder doch ganz anders?“ vor den anderen Forschungsgruppen. Dass sich aller Schweiß und alle Tränen letztendlich ausgezahlt haben, war wirklich ein gutes Gefühl.

09.08.2023

…den Umstand, dass ich trotz Verspätung des Dorfbusses meinen Zug noch erwischt habe.

08.08.2023

…die mehrmaligen Anrufe von Stefan aus England in den letzen Tagen und das Gefühl eine wichtige Bezugsperson für ihn zu sein.

07.08.2023

…die selbstgemachte Tomatensuppe meiner Stiefschwester und den generellen Umstand, dass sie sich die Mühe gemacht hat mir bzw. uns etwas schönes zu kochen.

06.08.2023

…ein Frühstück mit frischen Tomaten aus dem Garten und selbst gemachtem Honig unserer Bienen.

05.08.2023

…einen gemütlichen Abend mit meiner Stiefschwester auf der Couch und die Regentropfen an der Fensterscheibe.

04.08.2023

…einen Sonnenuntergang am Feldrand, ein Glas Wein und den Song „Golden Hour Rausch“ im Ohr.